Today was a good day

Danny was feeling pretty good today. He's been on the IV nutrition for 2 days now and I really think it is making him feel better. This is also his second day back on an antibiotic and he didn't run any fever today. He's starting to get up and move again as well. Physical therapy has finally realized (after quite a bit of fussing from me) that he does need assistance getting his strength back. I asked them to come walk with him a couple of times each day. One lady told me that they are here to help people who can't walk on their own. I explained that he couldn't for fear of fainting again. Anyway after going back and forth with her she took him for a walk and made him do some activities in the hallway. I'm not sure what happened, but she came back with him just as sweet as she could be. Apparently his legs began to shake and she realized how weak he is after laying in a hospital bed for 30 days. They will work with him twice a day now by walking and doing various activities.

We've also asked Dr. Newton to join Danny's physicians. He is a colon/rectal specialist who works closely with Dr. Butts--no comments please!! :) Dr. Butts is one of the top colon/rectal surgeons in the area. Even Danny's primary physician cracked up when I mentioned his name. Anyway, Dr. Newton will be in tomorrow to review the case and give his opinion. I'm hoping to make a decision this week on Danny's care. Either he keeps the drain tube, IV antibiotics, and IV nutrition and comes home to recover or he has surgery. I'm fine with him coming home with all of that. At least he'd be able to watch the Astros and kiss his girls goodnight each day. If Dr. Newton says he can do surgery and believes there is at least a 50% chance he wouldn't need a temporary colostomy--Danny said he'd have surgery tomorrow. So we will see. Hopefully we will have a plan by the end of the week.

I've been really worried about Danny's depression, but today was a great day. He had several visitors and me there off and on so he didn't get a chance to start thinking about everything. He saw Laura today for the first time in about a week. It was bittersweet for him. It was great to see her, but he couldn't believe how much she's changed over the last couple of weeks. He says she's gotten taller. She's also talking a lot more since she started day care. So far she hasn't cried when I drop her off-knock, knock, on wood. She really seems to love it. Daley is enjoying VBS as well. She went to Kirsten's house today to swim after VBS and had a great time. She couldn't believe that they had a pool filled with ocean water! Apparently their pool has a salt-water system and Daley thought that was very cool.

Everyone asks how I am doing. I'm making it is all I can say. I have so many wonderful people around me helping with anything they can. All I want is for someone to promise me that he will come home to his family. I don't care when and I don't care in what condition. Even if he has to have a colostomy for the rest of his life. I just want to know that he will come home. That is my struggle each day. We've been married for 12 years and have accomplished so many things together. We grew up together and made our own life exactly the way we wanted it. I depend on him so much emotionally. He's such a better person and a better parent than I am and I've always fed off of his positive attitude, fun-loving personality, and compassion. I just don't feel like myself without him home. I'm doing what I can each day to make it through all of this for my children and to make him proud.